A little background Info for you: My Name is Sarah, I'm a 27 year old Stay at home mom. My husband, Sam is an officer in the Air Force and we currently live in Las Vegas, Nevada. Our Daughter, Laura is 4 and we were expecting our second baby in May. But in December we went in for our 20 week ultrasound to find out the baby had no heartbeat. I delivered a girl on December 19th.
When we lost the baby "they" told me that everyone deals with this differently. At first I thought I would never get over it. But it turns out "they" were right I did start to deal with it in my own way. Problem is my way is starting to surprise even me. Sam has been back at work for almost two weeks now and I haven't really left the house. I have dutifully dropped Laura off and picked her up from school every Tuesday and Thursday afternoon and even stopped off to pick up a gallon of milk once. But other then that I've remained shut up here at home. I think Why should I go out, at home I don't have to deal with babies and pregnant women.
Don't feel bad for me just yet though, being an almost shut in has it's advantages. So far I've done some online shopping and spent my Christmas gift cards, Completed a 1,000 piece dolphin puzzle, watched my Sisters Keeper thanks to Netflix, and organized everyone's closet. I finally feel like I can sleep at night without the worry of what is really lurking in the back of the closet.
Waiting on the UPS man to bring me my cool new pair of "damaged" jeans. I'm sure then I'll be ready to head out!
When we lost the baby "they" told me that everyone deals with this differently. At first I thought I would never get over it. But it turns out "they" were right I did start to deal with it in my own way. Problem is my way is starting to surprise even me. Sam has been back at work for almost two weeks now and I haven't really left the house. I have dutifully dropped Laura off and picked her up from school every Tuesday and Thursday afternoon and even stopped off to pick up a gallon of milk once. But other then that I've remained shut up here at home. I think Why should I go out, at home I don't have to deal with babies and pregnant women.
Don't feel bad for me just yet though, being an almost shut in has it's advantages. So far I've done some online shopping and spent my Christmas gift cards, Completed a 1,000 piece dolphin puzzle, watched my Sisters Keeper thanks to Netflix, and organized everyone's closet. I finally feel like I can sleep at night without the worry of what is really lurking in the back of the closet.
Waiting on the UPS man to bring me my cool new pair of "damaged" jeans. I'm sure then I'll be ready to head out!
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