This month marks an end to a lot of things in our lives. An end to our time in Vegas, an end to the kindergarten school year, an end to our fertility treatments, an end to our time in the U.S. and an end to our hopes of expanding our family. We have a lot of good, exciting changes happening in our lives, but unfortunately with those positive changes come a few setbacks. We were told that while it isn't impossible it might be difficult to get a new prescription of clomid in Germany. When Sam and I discussed this months ago, we decided then that if we were not pregnant when it came time for our move we would suspend our fertility medications and treatment. The problem is that 5 months ago when this was all hypothetical it was easy for me to agree to "give up" when I was confident it wouldn't come to that, clomid would work. Three cycles later I have been proven wrong. I'm losing hope because how can I expect to conceive naturally when proven drugs haven't given us any positive results. I am optimistic that with a fresh start in a fresh country away from the ghosts that have haunted us in Vegas we will find harmony with our family weather it expands or not.
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